It has been a while since I’ve been active on my blog and to be honest, I haven’t felt like posting or writing anything, but I am back and ready to be more consistent!
Recently, I have been proactive with healing my body from the inside out and it, and I thought this would be a great start in sharing especially before the new year! Here are my top 5 must-dos for healing your body and mind:
Read often
Meditate or pray daily
Journal your thoughts or talk to someone (even voice recording yourself to talk things through)
For me, taking probiotics and wanting to heal my body has been a big thing for me. Most recently I’ve struggled with hormone imbalances that made my postpartum anxiety and depression linger for way too long. I’m sure a lot of us mamas can relate to feeling more than “off” from time to time. I can say with not taking hormones, therapy, exercise, vitamins, and good probiotics I don’t have those issues anymore. I’m not here to be all about me but it is important to heal your body along with your mind.
I wrote this over a year ago with the intent to publish it but was scared to put on paper my struggles as a new mom when I felt like the world was closing in on me–– I hope you enjoy it.
Having a baby during a global pandemic sure changes a lot of things as many of you know. It changes relationships, how you thought your story might go as a mom, and who you become as a mother. I had a beautiful baby boy at the end of January 2021 and I never thought that part of my recovery physically would also be to recover my mind. My little guy spent a week in the NICU and I was desperate to feel “normal” and connected because my family could not possibly understand what it is like to be a mother in a pandemic AND have your baby not come home with you. I was the first of my major girlfriend group to get pregnant and have a baby and so they just didn’t understand how I was feeling. I really needed people in my life who understood where I was at in my journey and especially who understood the struggle of a NICU pandemic mom.
I faced not only the struggles of navigating new motherhood but came home with postpartum anxiety and depression. Bonuses I did not expect to come home with.
I kept telling myself I had all the support I needed though—I had my husband, my family, and friends. I realized over time that while these people were all great, they just didn’t get it! Being a mom that went through trauma it was so refreshing to have other women know and understand how hard pregnancy, labor, and NICU stays, and how hard being a pandemic mom truly was.
Flash forward two years and the pandemic seems like a blip in time. I am thankful for therapy, my immediate family and friends to get me through. I can say I made it! I made it through a time that was so very hard for me.
Whatever you are struggling with right now, know you are not alone. You can get through it and you might need some help along the way.
Every day we wake up with a new day, a new to start over to write our own. Each day the sun rises and so do we. We wake up to an awesome day that awaits us. Each day we are blessed with a new seed to grow into a beautiful new tree.
We can have it all just with a new mindset. A new mindset that our “tree” has new leaves fresh and crisp ready for that new day. Our trees are all different in there own ways, constructed vein by vein in each leaf, branch by branch down to the trunk to support and hold up everything. Our tree is special. It’s leaves may shed, to leave us with something bare but that’s just it— they shed for something greater. Day by day we are graced with new. New ideas, new support, new growth. We may run into trouble or doubt but one thing remains: each new leaf to make our tree is beautiful. A tree doesn’t doubt how to grow it just does. Our path and growth is planned for us and we just need to do. Just do what’s best for us in order for us to grow. To grow into something magnificent and detailed in our own unique ways.
This isn’t my typical blog post but I felt inspired by J Lo’s new movie, Second Act and the words just flowed in because we all can have that chance to have a second act. We are not always in control but we can nourish our tree to grow and guide it into something amazing.
If you’re reading this, your tree is special too. You are detailed and wonderfully made. You are developing new beautiful leaves and strong branches to add in supporting the greatest thing: you. You’re tree shouldn’t doubt its ability to be something stronger, something outstanding. It just does. So tomorrow just be. Be you. Be your own kind of beautiful and let your tree stand tall.
I have taken a much-needed break from writing this year. I went back and counted, and I only published a piece 3 times! Say what?? I know, I know, who am I? My 2017 was filled with things that needed to be written, that were required to be published. This year, I was busy, and I honestly felt I had nothing to say, but I am ready for a change.
Prepared to give everyone another look into my garden because there is a lot of new flowers filled with thoughts, new ideas, and new passions.
These last 60 days of 2018, have taught me more about what I want and what I need more than the whole year did. In 2018, I still experienced loss, pain and more negatives than I cared to enjoy. This next year, I am ready to be grateful. To be grateful for the positive energies. To be grateful for me.
So, are you ready for this? This is the 24 things the last 60 days of 2018 taught me (yes, I was inspired by “thank u, next” by Ariana Grande for this, but I don’t care).
Love yourself through the pain.
Try not to look at the negative factors surrounding your life. There is beauty in the positives, you just need to see that and not the negativity.
Look outside. Like really look. Appreciate the fresh, crisp air for a few moments because this life is a gift.
Be patient. Your time will come, and it will be awesome.
Don’t always believe all the “fluff” people tell you. If they aren’t genuine or entirely there for you, they aren’t worth your time and for you to hear the things that aren’t truly meaningful.
Compliment someone daily. That real and brief moment can mean everything to that person.
Smile, it looks good on you.
When you’re down, give yourself a pep talk and shake it off. You are better than that and have greatness ahead of you.
You are amazing and do not forget that.
If you are not happy about something, speak up. You will be better off speaking what is on your mind than keeping that in.
Surround yourself with people that mean something to you and give you the love you deserve back. Anyone else that doesn’t isn’t worth being a part of your life.
Do something for yourself at least once a month.
Remember, fear is made up in your own mind put your faith somewhere else.
Stop apologizing for being yourself or saying no to something that isn’t for you.
What others think of you isn’t really your business don’t put your worry on that– it isn’t worth the anxiety.
Meditate daily and stop thinking… even if it is for 5 minutes.
Just because you plan, doesn’t mean that is how it will turn out and that is okay.
Do your best and be okay with your best.
Eat the dessert. Life is too short to not enjoy the cake.
Listen to the rain and be grateful for the water to wash away your cares and worries. It gives us a new beginning, and there is beauty after the storm.
You can buy an outfit for every occasion. Reward yourself, you deserve it.
Sing at the top of your lungs and dance it out… this is a healthier way to clear your head.
Love yourself in the bliss, not just the pain.
Trust your heart.
Thank you for enjoying the new flowers of ideas and thoughts in my garden for 2019. I cannot wait to show you what my garden has to offer in this new year, and I hope all of your gardens bloom with beauty too.
“Do things for yourself; in thirty years nobody is going to remember your choices except you.”
Over the last two weeks, I have really struggled with self-love and doing things for only me. It’s hard to put yourself first when you’re always putting others first when the truth is loving yourself should be the priority over all the other things. In the words of Sheryl Crow, “if it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad”.. so do it.. make yourself happy.
Life is too short to not do what makes you happy. If anything I’ve learned over the last year that has been reiterated these past few weeks in finding myself, it is to do what is best for you and everything else will fall into place. If you don’t do what’s best for you first how can you do what is best for anyone else? From now on, I’m doing just that while blasting and singing “If It Makes You Happy” by Sheryl Crow.
Things I’ve done (that you should try too) that’s made me the happiest I’ve been in a while:
Had a dance party in my car on Friday to get out of my head. (If you were one of the chosen ones to see my Snapchats, consider yourself lucky).
Had spontaneous nights with friends that included crying and laughing
Ate ice cream for dinner
Ate breakfast for lunch
Bought myself new clothes because why not?!
Dressed up for brunch in something I wouldn’t normally wear
Had brunch with old friends
Took selfies and posted them because again: Why. Not.
Woke up and reminded myself that the life I live is beautiful.
Appreciated myself and then the people around me (side note I really need to listen to my own advice).
On my bad days I remind myself of these things because it’s the wins that outway the losses.
I have been away for a little bit gathering my thoughts and taking a break from a little bit of everything. P.S. I also went on a much-needed vacation. Rather than stick to my 30 days of blogging challenge, which let’s be honest, I haven’t been very good at; but I am going to try from here on out to blog once a week. Not only to serve as a creative outlet, but I want to share my creativity and passions with my readers.
So without further ado… this weeks blog: why you need to take a vacation and get off the screen you live on.
Last weekend at this time, we were coming back from a bike ride from the beach (one of our 10+ mile bike rides). Sunday at the beach was a cloudy day but a great day, at that and I was exhausted. The previous days consisted of eating too much, laughing until I cried with family and soaking myself in aloe because of a bad sunburn. Monday was our last day and we again road bikes and ate way too much.
With spending so much time on a bike, you one: have to pay attention to where you are going especially when the Boardwalk is crazy busy and two: you have a lot of time to look at what’s around you and clear your head. While on vacation, I practiced just that. I wasn’t on my phone every second and I was forced to appreciate the scenery around me.
I mean how could you not appreciate the scenery with views like this?! I guess what I am saying is get off that screen and go make memories of watching the sunset until its dark, go on a walk until your feet feel like they are going to fall off, eat food with the people you love until your stomach almost bursts and thank God for the people around you because that is all that matters.
Valuing myself and looking at what I love about myself makes my day that much better. Sometimes after a long and rough day, you have to do or think about the things that make you happy. You also have to love yourself.
In order to connect and write worthy posts, I am going to do a series of 30 days of blog posts. P.S. I got this off Pinterest so I want to thank Pinterest for my inspiration for the next 30 days. Get ready to bloom into my life.
Today is #1. Seventeen Facts About Me
I am an only child
I recently graduated and am now starting graduate school to study psychology (wait, is that two? oh well)
My family are my biggest fans
I am a photographer
I work in marketing
I have a cat that stays at my parents’ house (or her castle because she thinks she’s a queen)
I bought a house at 21.
My life path number is 11. (If you don’t know what life path numbers are add your birthday up and Google it. I’m sure you’ll learn something about yourself)
I’ve gone through all of life’s stressors and lost more people than I would have imagined at the end of 2016 and through this year
I love pizza and ice cream
I am gluten free
I am slightly obsessed with Gossip Girl and Greys Anatomy. I have watched both series more times than I’d like to admit
My favorite bible verse is Romans 12:12
I have a thing for numbers (if you couldn’t tell by fact #11)
I am passionate about giving back and helping veterans
I bake cupcakes
I started this blog to have an outlet and display my creative work
I am trying to figure out my place in the world. Oh also I am a recent college grad and I am going back to school for my masters. My family says I am an overachiever and I would have to agree with them; but when I know something is right for me, I am passionate about whatever is thrown my way.
Rewind to 2009, where I had blonde chunks peeking through parts of my hair and took graphic design to have an excuse to be with my friends in class in order to feel like I fit in. I learned the basics and quickly fell head over heels with being behind the camera and photoshop. Mind you, I wasn’t very good and had a lot to learn, but I soon learned to prove myself and others.
Fast forward to 2014 where I challenged myself in college to experience more than just business classes. I expanded my portfolio and learned art is just that: art. It is whatever you make of it. Photography and graphic design has shown me: be who you want because there is only one you (so what, if other people don’t like that). Two years later, I graduated from Grand Canyon University with a Bachelor of Science in Marketing and started Modern Roses. I am continually challenged with working with an array of clients and projects. I have never been happier to explore and have a creative outlet.
What do I love most? Being a part of my clients’ memories, hearing their stories and capturing & reflecting through my camera and art how my clients may not see themselves.
So welcome to my secret garden where the flowers are colored with life, love and a little bit of everything in between.
the modern rose 