stand tall.

Every day we wake up with a new day, a new to start over to write our own. Each day the sun rises and so do we. We wake up to an awesome day that awaits us. Each day we are blessed with a new seed to grow into a beautiful new tree.

We can have it all just with a new mindset. A new mindset that our “tree” has new leaves fresh and crisp ready for that new day. Our trees are all different in there own ways, constructed vein by vein in each leaf, branch by branch down to the trunk to support and hold up everything. Our tree is special. It’s leaves may shed, to leave us with something bare but that’s just it— they shed for something greater. Day by day we are graced with new. New ideas, new support, new growth. We may run into trouble or doubt but one thing remains: each new leaf to make our tree is beautiful. A tree doesn’t doubt how to grow it just does. Our path and growth is planned for us and we just need to do. Just do what’s best for us in order for us to grow. To grow into something magnificent and detailed in our own unique ways.

This isn’t my typical blog post but I felt inspired by J Lo’s new movie, Second Act and the words just flowed in because we all can have that chance to have a second act. We are not always in control but we can nourish our tree to grow and guide it into something amazing.

If you’re reading this, your tree is special too. You are detailed and wonderfully made. You are developing new beautiful leaves and strong branches to add in supporting the greatest thing: you. You’re tree shouldn’t doubt its ability to be something stronger, something outstanding. It just does. So tomorrow just be. Be you. Be your own kind of beautiful and let your tree stand tall.

Xo,

Kai

lessons from the last 60 days of 2018

I have taken a much-needed break from writing this year.  I went back and counted, and I only published a piece 3 times!  Say what??  I know, I know, who am I?  My 2017 was filled with things that needed to be written, that were required to be published.  This year, I was busy, and I honestly felt I had nothing to say, but I am ready for a change. 

Prepared to give everyone another look into my garden because there is a lot of new flowers filled with thoughts, new ideas, and new passions.

These last 60 days of 2018, have taught me more about what I want and what I need more than the whole year did.  In 2018, I still experienced loss, pain and more negatives than I cared to enjoy.  This next year, I am ready to be grateful.  To be grateful for the positive energies. To be grateful for me.

So, are you ready for this?  This is the 24 things the last 60 days of 2018 taught me (yes, I was inspired by “thank u, next” by Ariana Grande for this, but I don’t care).

  1. Love yourself through the pain.
  2. Try not to look at the negative factors surrounding your life.  There is beauty in the positives, you just need to see that and not the negativity.
  3. Look outside.  Like really look.  Appreciate the fresh, crisp air for a few moments because this life is a gift.
  4. Be patient.  Your time will come, and it will be awesome.
  5. Don’t always believe all the “fluff” people tell you.  If they aren’t genuine or entirely there for you, they aren’t worth your time and for you to hear the things that aren’t truly meaningful.
  6. Compliment someone daily.  That real and brief moment can mean everything to that person.
  7. Smile, it looks good on you.
  8. When you’re down, give yourself a pep talk and shake it off.  You are better than that and have greatness ahead of you.
  9. You are amazing and do not forget that.
  10. If you are not happy about something, speak up.  You will be better off speaking what is on your mind than keeping that in.
  11. Surround yourself with people that mean something to you and give you the love you deserve back.  Anyone else that doesn’t isn’t worth being a part of your life.
  12. Do something for yourself at least once a month.
  13. Remember, fear is made up in your own mind put your faith somewhere else.
  14. Stop apologizing for being yourself or saying no to something that isn’t for you.
  15. What others think of you isn’t really your business don’t put your worry on that– it isn’t worth the anxiety.
  16. Meditate daily and stop thinking… even if it is for 5 minutes.
  17. Just because you plan, doesn’t mean that is how it will turn out and that is okay.
  18. Do your best and be okay with your best.
  19. Eat the dessert. Life is too short to not enjoy the cake.
  20. Listen to the rain and be grateful for the water to wash away your cares and worries. It gives us a new beginning, and there is beauty after the storm.
  21. You can buy an outfit for every occasion. Reward yourself, you deserve it.
  22. Sing at the top of your lungs and dance it out… this is a healthier way to clear your head.
  23. Love yourself in the bliss, not just the pain.
  24. Trust your heart.

Thank you for enjoying the new flowers of ideas and thoughts in my garden for 2019. I cannot wait to show you what my garden has to offer in this new year, and I hope all of your gardens bloom with beauty too.

xo,
kai

hello 2018.

a letter to my future self:

2017 was a rough year to sum it up into a sentence.  With any roller coaster ride of a year you have ups and downs and lessons that were learned.  Over these 365 days these are the 23 things I have learned and the things I will carry with me into the new year.

  1.  Stop pretending to be someone you are not or someone that someone else makes you out to be.  You don’t have to impress anyone, but you.  If someone’s expectations are different, let them be different.  Be you — through and through.
  2. Keep your feet grounded.  Not literally, but hold onto the concept that the ground is a support for the times that are shakey.
  3. Breathe.  Go outside, take a walk and breathe.  Appreciate the blue sky and the air around you.
  4. Remind yourself that life is beautiful even in what seems like a disaster.
  5. Be a genuine human.
  6. Tell the people you love you love them and mean it.
  7. Do something that scares you.
  8. Push through the pain; in the end the pain will fade, you will heal and be okay.
  9. Day dream and set goals for those dreams.
  10. Hold on to hope.  You might not feel like it is there, but it is.  Trust me.
  11. Dance in the street with strangers or friends because life is short.
  12. Be the light in the darkest places.
  13. Do one thing a day that makes you happy.
  14. It’s not your responsibility to fix anyone.
  15. Try your best. Always.
  16. Remember tomorrow is always a new start and a fresh new day.
  17. Learn something new.
  18. You are alright. (In the words of my bestie, “you got this”. And P.S. you do.)
  19. Life is hard, but you are stronger than the hard times.
  20. Turn your music up and blast your speakers.  Let the music take over and be free.
  21. You are an awesome human (who cares if your weird or what other people think).
  22. Meditate daily.  Even if it is for five minutes.  Take a minute for yourself.
  23. Let it go. Whatever it is, let it go and let God.

None of that “new year, new me” stuff.  We are still the same people we might just have new scars or beauty marks in this new year, but we have a fresh start for new memories (good or bad) and those memories are what you make it. Cheers to a new year!

xo,

kai